Today I Wannabe...grateful.

I spend so much time worrying about things in my life that I either cannot change, or have not changed for some reason.  This really gets me nowhere, since I usually end up being depressed about these things, and then I worry more because I'm depressed.  A vicious little circle.  It can often consume my whole day until I end up getting nothing done and changing nothing because I am overwhelmed by all that I want to change. One of my New Year's goals is to work on myself, and reading "Simple Abundance" daily is one of them.  Interestingly enough, the thoughts of change and determination to change this year and make it a better one for myself correspond with the "Simple Abundance" entry for today.  Sarah Ban Breathnach says: "When I surrendered my desire for security and sought serenity instead I looked at my life with open eyes."  She's talking about focusing on what she has rather than what she lacks.  This is right in line with my desire to live and think abundantly instead of in scarcity, and also with my desire for inner peace and serenity.  Her answer to this is to be grateful for the things in her life that matter.  So here I am this morning thinking about what I am grateful for.

There is so much to be grateful for right in my own home.  My husband, my daughter and grandson, my wonderful cat who is constantly loving and affectionate, and even the basic needs, a roof over my head, heat when it's cold, food in the pantry, and running water and electricity.  And, although we may be late on payments for some of these things, they, nonetheless, exist right now.  I want to feel grateful for all of them rather than worried about how I'm going to pay the utility bills and how I'll make dinner tonight.  Because, one way or another, things usually work out.  And, to that end, I'm taking a financial seminar designed to create peace in that area of my life.  It's a little scary to think about all the things that I need to change, but I am so tired of living pay check to pay check and always worrying about how we'll get through.  Back to my mantra:  we will have enough, we will have enough, we will have enough.

I will be grateful, and I will appreciate all that I have and all that I am capable of doing.  I fret sometimes since I am currently not working, and therefore contributing an income. But, instead of fretting, I should just be glad that I have the ability to handle the bills, to take care of the home, to make dinner, to do the laundry, and the rest of the things that I can do.  I need to remember that although my physical limitations are frustrating and painful, I CAN do quite a bit that may be beyond some folks.

So here I am, going into today with a heart full of gratitude and a positive outlook, knowing that I can live abundantly with what I already have.